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What Did God Tell You?

 
II Kings 20:5 – This is what the LORD, the God of your father David, says: I have heard your prayer and seen your tears; I will heal you.

Six weeks ago, I found out I had to get all four of my wisdom teeth removed. I have to admit I was terrified. I have never had any issues with my teeth, not a cavity…nothing; so finding out I had to get something done did not make me happy. Three weeks later, I reluctantly scheduled the extraction surgery. On Monday, January 15, I went into the office wide-eyed and terrified, but after the procedure was re-explained, I was more relaxed; especially since my husband was in the room with me.

As the dental technician began prepping me, the dreaded question came that a lot of women hate and that is “what is your weight?” To be honest, for the last 6 years I have come to HATE that question. I never did before, but after I had my second child, I had many complications that have spilled over and remained even after he was born and my weight has been one of them.

I told him my weight and there was silence. It bothered me slightly, but I let it go because I know I have been working on it. Again, they are taking my blood pressure and for some reason, it is exceptionally high, which is very in usual. After 30 minutes of observing my pressure to see if it would decrease, It did not, so I decided to use wisdom and come back another time. On January 22, I returned to the office with no fear, sat in the chair and the dental technician began the drill of hooking me up and starting an IV. This time the dentist enters the room and again the dreaded question comes, “what is your weight?” I answered and again silence.

Once again, my pressure is up. Now I am frustrated wondering what is going on! I take my health seriously and I have never been careless, so now I am truly confused. After an hour of poking me with IV’s and giving me medication that was supposed to lower my pressure, again I decided I did not want to proceed and I would reschedule the appointment. At this point, quite honestly, I was frustrated.  I have been doing the right things and I cannot believe the struggle I have been experiencing trying to lose this weight.

Now, I understand any physician stating the facts and I believe it is important; however, I could tell the dentist was anxious about wanting to say something about my weight. The doctor looks at me and says, “your pressure is up because you have to change your lifestyle.” “You don’t take care of yourself and if I proceed with the surgery, you can die right here on the table or have a stroke.” I walked out of the office, walked to my car and silently cried.

I trust and believe in God and quoting His word, but at the time, I was completely devastated and I allowed my emotions to get the best of me. It was not until about midnight as I was in prayer that the Lord said, “what is it that I told you?” At that moment, my faith was lifted and I began to write to you.

This is what I feel led to leave with you. If you KNOW you are doing what you SHOULD and you are still not seeing the results regardless if it is your weight, finances, job, marriage, or whatever, you keep fighting the good fight of faith because GOD SEES ALL and KNOWS ALL.. All God’s promises made to you are YES and AMEN according to II Corinthians 1:20.

God knows what I have been doing as it relates to my health and by faith, I am healed and free in Jesus Name. So whatever you face, remember what God said about the situation not man. It does not matter what it looks like. He may delay what he told you, but He will never deny you.

Blessings.

Darlene
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God, I Did It Right This Time…

            Psalm 34:18 – The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.

 

After being married for almost a year, I became pregnant with my first child. I was elated and a little scared at the same time because it had been ten years since that last time I was pregnant; but I was ready.

I thought to myself, this time I do not have to hide my belly; this time I can tell people; this time I am married and I have a man who truly loves me and is just as excited as I am about bringing a new life into the world. This time I am happy.

Then on Friday, November 23, 2007, it all changed. I went to work feeling good, but as the day progressed, I began to feel worse. I experienced cramping and later spotting. After I got home, I told my husband what I was experiencing and we reluctantly went to the emergency room.
We went to the hospital that evening and spoke with a cold and unsympathetic doctor who told us we were experiencing a miscarriage. I could not believe it and neither did my husband. Earlier that day, I had a feeling that it was happening but did not want to believe it so I prayed against it. Unfortunately, the miscarriage was becoming my truth.
How did things change so suddenly? This morning, I was happy with anticipation and by evening I had a feeling of grief so deep I could not share it enough to articulate. As the weekend slowly wore on, my heartbreak increased. Then, finally, it was over. I visited the doctor on Monday morning and there was no more baby. My brokenness was unbearable.
Then I thought, “God, I did it right this time.” I got married first and then had my baby. “Why is this happening?” “Did God love me?” If so, “Why did he allow this?” “Was I being punished for the things I did in my past?” “Is this punishment for having my first child out of wedlock?” “God Why?”
So…what do you do when you “do it right” and it still does not work out? You stand, trust and believe God’s plan for your life. Seems easy, but it is not especially when you are in the midst of your pain.  There are so many scriptures I could give, that give credence to this, but the one that comes to mind is one of my favorites which is Jeremiah 29:11, “for I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
A year later, I became pregnant again and we had our first son and two years after that, God gave me another baby that was part of His plan, but certainly not part of ours…lol…Praise God.

God gave me double for my pain and beauty for my ashes.  

The pain of losing a child never goes away, but I have peace knowing that I will see her at the appointed time. The bottom line is God is always in control even when things are out of control. He has a perfect plan that will always benefit us. However, it does not mean we will not experience pain to get to joy. But we still must trust the plan.

Love you all,

Darlene
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Persevere and Trust the Father

Hello Everyone!

I hope you are well. Today I want to share a little of my experience during the snowstorm here in Georgia.

The pictures I’ve shared represent how fast things can change. On December 13 around 3 pm, I posted a picture of my beautiful driveway covered in snow. A couple hours later everything changed… SEE ALL THE PICS BELOW.

The experience was quite harrowing and I will not bore you with the details, but I want to let you know that through every experience good or bad, the Lord is with you! May you be blessed and encouraged by the video!

Love you all,
Darlene
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So Emotional…

Proverbs 25:28 “a person without self-control is like a city with broken-down walls” (NLT).

We must identify why we feel what we feel and get to the root of it. As women, we have many emotions and I believe God has designed us that way. Our emotions make us unique and we should embrace them; however, we must be cognizant of not allowing our emotions to control us.

On December 12th as I was cleaning and organizing files in preparation for the New Year, I came across my mother’s death certificate. As soon as I saw it, I began to ball my eyes out. I did not expect such raw emotions to emerge and I was actually surprised. When I was done, I prayed and asked God to continue to heal my heart. Although I finished crying, I was experiencing a heavy weight of sadness for the rest of the day.

Later in the day, the Lord blessed my heart regarding another matter and I wanted to share it with my husband. When he came home, he asked “babe, what happened today” and I proceeded to share it with him. As I was speaking, I noticed he seemed “out of it” or rather disinterested. It upset me, so I stood up abruptly and walked angrily to my bedroom. As soon as I laid down on the bed the Holy Spirit said, “there is no reason to be upset with him” and I immediately knew why. Truth is, he was not disinterested, but tired and I could tell from the moment he walked in the door, but I proceeded to talk anyway. Second, what was actually bothering me is I was still sad regarding the loss of my mother. After identifying the root of why I was sad, I apologized to my husband and received the comfort I needed.

If I had not been obedient to the voice of God I would have gone to bed upset with my husband over something that did not exist. More importantly, I would have been disobedient to God. If we do not control our God-given emotions we will be ruled by them! Having out of control emotions can lead to divorce, misunderstandings, arguments, job loss, jail and saying things we are bound to regret.

How many times have we done something in the heat of the moment and regretted it later? I am sure each of us has. We must remember our emotions are valid and given to us by God. However, our emotions are fleeting and we cannot rely upon nor be ruled by them.

My prayer is each of us learns how to rule over our emotions so we can be pleasing to the Father and a blessing to those around us.

Love you all,

Darlene
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